Do You Understand The Words Coming Out Of My Mouth!?

 There are some things I will never understand no matter how many times I try to comprehend the meaning. I listened to this guy explain spacetime. Even though the words he spoke were understandable, when put all together in an explanation, I could feel my brain losing air like an untied balloon. At times in my life I am devastated by the fact that I'll never see what others can. Some people can look up in the sky and point out Ursa Minor. I see a bunch of stars. I do understand that when we look up into the sky we are seeing the past. That's pretty neato, but I will never get the time, space, gravity, speed of light stuff. That makes me sad. 

You don't have to be Einstein to understand the mechanics of a computer. A ten year old can create code, whatever that is. I confess I have never scanned a QR code in my life. I once went out to dinner with a friend where a QR code was required to verify the reservation. My friend had no problem finding it. I probably would have walked out, my tummy grumbling, my empty stomach as sad as my empty head. I think I'm just terrified of the unknown. What if I transfer something evil to my phone and end up in the dark web where weird things happen, or someone wants my private library of lol cats? 

I have to confess when I went back to school and we were discussing 'The Odyssey,' I began to lose the narrative. Students in their late teens clearly understand where the teacher was headed but I was lost, and for a brief moment I became frozen in terror. My God, I thought, am I really this stupid? By the way, I absolutely hated The Odyssey. I still don't understand why people find it amazing other than it was written a long time ago. It's a stupid tale about a selfish man who takes years to go home after the war as his wife and son wait for him. Did I get that right? Maybe it's about something else. Must be.

I saw a funny post on Bluesky where I absolutely connected to his question. He said he would read another Bluesky post, his brain slowly working to even understand what the hell it was about and there were already 5,000 comments in response to the nonsense. I love that guy, wherever he may be. Most people don't like to admit they don't get the idea, the gist, the narrative. Or, maybe it's just me and that one guy who just don't get it.

The universe is going to do what it does whether I understand it or not. I realize Einstein was a special guy. But, dammit, I'd love to have the lightbulb go off in my brain one day and finally get it. Hey, don't ask me how electricity works either. I know how to turn on a light switch. That's fine. It's fine. Yeah.